My Spiritual Quest to Oneness
For the majority of this lifetime I have searched for the answer to this perplexing question outside of myself thinking that if I did or had something that it would cure this vast void of emptiness that lurked inside of me. I used every possible means imaginable to mask and numb this unexplainable pain I felt, from eating disorders, to alcohol, to drugs, to even men and sex. Each one of my strategies though very different all had one thing in common, each left me feeling more empty and alone than before.
To societal standards I was veiwed as a "self destructive person", but to me I simply veiwed myself as a person in pursuit of happiness, the same thing that every other human being on this planet was pursuing. Perhaps maybe I was just looking in the wrong places to find it. Since looking externally for the answer to my happiness dilema was clearly not working I decided to take a whole new approach. I decided that it was time to look within myself for the key to unlock me from my prison of darkness. I had avoided looking inside myself for so long because I thought that I would find nothing but a black hole of ugliness at my core, that if seen could then be exposed for the whole world to see. However once I peeked into the core of my being I realized that this horrible monster that I had envisioned was nowhere to be found. Instead what I found was pure, beautiful, and magnificent love residing there. This love that is me is the same love that is God, there is no separateness between us, we are one. I also soon realized that this very same love is at the core of every being in the entire Universe and that there is no separateness between us either. All of the lonines that I had felt in my lifetime thinking that I was separate was merely an illusion that was created by none other than my ego. So if God is perfect and I am one with God then that meant that I was whole, missing absolutely nothing therefore there was nothing more for me to find or search for because it was always right there inside of me.
This realization of Universal oneness has opened my eyes to the depths and beauty of my soul and has set me on a spiritual quest to see through this egoic veil and into true oneness with the entire Universe. This recent awakening has inspired me to document every step of this new path that I take and to share it with as many fellow travelers as possible. We are all together in this journey. God bless you all.
Love & Light,
Erika Lyn
Posted in: ego, finding happiness, God, new age, oneness, quest for happiness, soul, spirit, spiritual journey, spirituality, universal laws, veil of illusion on Sunday, October 25, 2009 at at 9:04 PM 0 comments
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